About Me

This is me. A forty something mum of four. This is my life. A newly single mum following a fifteen year relationship break up. Fifteen years of emotional abuse. Living in Wales, smiling on the outside, this is my personal release. My blog is anonymous, but me, my family and my life are very real. Thank you for stopping by.

On 29 June 2014 my fifteen year old relationship to the father of my three youngest children ended.

It is a long, complicated story, but it needs to be told, so that I can start to heal.

I got married in 1993 to my now ex-husband - and we had a baby girl - who is now 18 - Diva.

I left him in 1999 when Diva was 2 and a half.

Very soon after, I got together with my now ex-partner - Jon. Diva and I moved into his house. I had a baby girl at the end of 1999.

I had my eldest son in 2002.

I moved out of his house (our home, such as it was) in 2009, with my children, into our own home.

My relationship with Jon continued. I hoped that by moving out, Jon would change he didn't). We did not live together but saw Jon almost daily, and he stayed at weekends.

In 2012 I had my youngest son KP. We still did not live together.

Our relationship deteriorated earlier in 2014, and Jon was not staying over, we were together, but not fully.

In June 2014, at the beginning of a family holiday abroad, our relationship viciously, nastily and venomously ended. 

I am now realising the extent of the emotional and mental abuse that me and my children have suffered. There were a handful of physically violent incidents, which I have never talked about until now.